Reflection

Did you ever wish you could simply start over again? At anything. Life, for instance. Maybe that's why some people choose to believe in reincarnation because they want a chance to do it all over again, but this time do it right? I can understand why they want to believe it. Ever heard the saying "hindsight is 20/20?" Whoever said it wasn't kidding, in fact, they were right on. As you get older, it's such an amazing discovery looking back at your own personal winding "roadmap" that is/was something called your life. So many wrong turns in the bend, so many wrong choices. Sad, really. Some lessons are hard to learn, no? But, then again there were several MAJOR right ones, too. For example, my divorce, although nearly twenty years overdue, not for one minute have I regretted it. Then there's NOT accepting a transfer to New Orleans in 2000. I must admit I'm glad I wasn't in Hurricane Katrina, right in the midst of all that chaos and devastation. But now all the wrong choices are categorized as "regrets" in my mind and they are bitter pills to swallow. Perhaps the greatest one of all is how I've used my time. In the past I've been so willing to give my time to others, others who either haven't appreciated it or couldn't have cared less. So, now it's time I concentrate on what is most important to me and that is my writing. It's time to brush off the dust that has been collecting on my novel and finally get it finished. It's time to set up the scenes for my second one, and do the research for the trilogy of books I plan thereafter. Hmmm, all of it neatly stored away in my brain, patiently waiting for the time to birth it. From the pangs of remorse I've been feeling lately, somehow I think it's way overdue.